A Celebration of Trevor... 24 years and counting

Trevor and I just barely made it through another crazy busy week. We knew that this summer would fill up fast, but we didn't understand how fast, and just exactly how full it truly would become.  Luckily, we got to have a relaxing weekend up at a cabin with some of our best friends, Craig and Lindsey Allen. It is sad how you lose touch with friends along the way, but these two are sure to be around for the long haul. We spend 3 days at a cabin with them and their family. It entailed many games of cards, a few neck and neck games of horse shoes, and one very eventful round of Mario party. It was so good to just get away and relax. 

Wednesday was Trevor's 24th Birthday!!! I think I was more excited than he was actually. I hate that birthdays aren't as big of a deal to guys as they are to girls. Either way, I was not about to just let this slide by.  We spent it with just the two of us, and I wanted him to know exactly just how important he is to me!! I made him my first ever birthday cake from scratch.  Dont' judge the writing... I never claimed to be a cake decorator. But I wasn't about to let him get off without candles and the whole shebang. He pretty much thought I couldn't get any cheesier, but being Trevor, he was happy just having things to light on fire. 

Birthday kisses.. doesn't everybody do those? Spankings just hurt. Plus I wanted to let him know that I better get 21 kisses on my birthday =)  

We had ribs for dinner and ate chocolate cake together right out of the pan. What more could you ask for on a birthday?  Trev was trying to guess his birthday present when I somehow managed to lead him into thinking I got him an ultimate breakfast sandwich maker ( who knows if they even exist). He was playing along so cute like he really would have been so excited. The sense of relief in his eyes when he saw his golf bag was priceless. 

My life would be completely dull without Trevor in it. This summer may be insanely busy, but it was so much fun to have a day just for him.And it was even better that the only thing he wanted for his birthday was to be together and relax for a night. The chocolate cake was just a bonus!  Happy Birthday Trevor! I love you!

Some things just Bug me...

Trevor had to leave for work this morning at 5 AM! I think it is downright wrong for people to be expected to even be awake before that time in the morning, let alone awake AND leaving for work! It's always hard for me to get back to sleep after  he goes, so I toss and turn until I convince myself to get up. This morning I was walking around our apt around 6 or so. I don't think I was expected so early, because there were bugs everywhere! The king of all potato bugs and his followers have claimed my kitchen as their own. The spiders on our walls aren't helping my bug phobia anxiety disorder either. So here I sit, living in fear in my own apt. Me and my sister have this awful habit of putting bowls and cups over anything living so that our husband's can deal with it when they get home. Immature? I say logical. Last year me and my roommate Telisha had some dumb boys set a whole pack of pet store crickets free in our apartment. We were traumatized! They were the nasty type that blend into everything, and you can only see them when they're jumping at your face.  We ran out of bowls all too quickly, and I had to face my issues. We resorted to Tupperware.  I'm a big girl right? Wrong. I hate bugs with a passion. But, having Trevor around to be the brave one has been a perk of being married I could never have imagined. Plus he never fails to get a good laugh at the situation. Next time I'm just going to stay in bed and pretend not to be paranoid.

Life is too short..

Me and Trevor had an experience this weekend that I wouldn't wish on anyone in the whole world, nor would I ever want to go through it again.

Our plans for this weekend were simple; quiet weekend in St. George with the family. Friday afternoon we both got off work, packed up and were off. The drive was peaceful. We stopped for dinner, stopped to go to the bathroom, and swore that we wouldn't need to stop again before we got there. That was before we saw the accident.

As we came up on one of the first exits to go to Parawon, we saw flames up ahead of us directly under the overpass. As we drove by we saw a landrover completely smashed into the center pillar with a body laying next to it. A couple of cars pulled off ahead of us but farther away. Trevor got out of the car, told me to dial 911 and sprinted towards the burning vehicle. He was the first one on the scene, and as responsible for pulling the man out of the fire and trying to bring him back to consciousness. By the time the highway patrol was on the scene and ambulance on their way, CPR had been attempted and failed. I knew in my heart when I saw them trying to bring the man back that it wasn't going to work. The Landrover continued to explode over and over. I could feel the heat on my body, and Trev being so close, I panicked. I've never gone into shock before, but I'm told that's exactly what I was experiencing. Everything but the explosions sounded so far away. I began to shake uncontrollably, watching the medics immediately place a sheet over the body was too much. People don't just see these types of things every day, and I definitely did not know how to handle it. I could see people talking to me, but couldn't comprehend what they were saying.  There were so many people around but I could only concentrate on making sure Trev was OK.
I had just witnessed a man's death. A complete stranger who I would have never met in this world otherwise. But for some reason, it still hurt. I couldn't stop thinking about the family that was going to be called with the tragic news, and the life that is now completely over.
I've never felt so fragile. The rest of the drive to St. George was terrifying. The storm we were driving through seemed so intense and even 40 mph seemed too fast. I started getting angry that life can be taken so quickly. I felt completely powerless and wished there was a way I could ensure nothing bad could ever happen to Trevor. witnessing someone being taken from this earth so quickly makes you want to hold on to those you love and never let go.  Watching him respond so quickly, and becoming so close to danger made me also wish he wasn't so brave. I was so proud to see him being strong, but it didn't make it less traumatic. Not only did he have to be there for that man, but he also had to talk me through what just happened afterwards. I didn't let go of him for one second for the rest of the night. Nothing seemed stable.
By the time we made it into town, we were exhausted. The event seemed surreal. Sleep wasn't happening either when every time we closed our eyes all we saw was tragedy. I can't image being someone who has to deal with these things on a daily basis.
Now that we've had tome to separate ourselves from the accident things have been able to settle down but I still feel like I take every day for granted. It is sad that it takes an accident like this to make me truly think about the plan of salvation, and what it means to me. If it wasn't for that plan, this life would be so hopeless. It is calming to realize I will get to be with those I love forever, no matter what this world has in store for us.
It has been an emotional weekend. I hope and pray we will never have to experience things like that ever again, but it is a comfort either way that I have Trevor by my side. 
My heart goes out to the family that lost someone they loved this weekend.

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Family and Fireworks

This weekend was all about family for me and Trev. After spending a very eventful Saturday with the Andersons, Monday was spent in good old Utah County with my family. Sometimes that's all it takes to remind you who you are and where you've come from. Even though our two families are very different, they are both so crucial to who we are today. We had a great first 4th of July being married. Hotdogs, lemonade, strawberries and cream, a nice breeze and great company. What more could we ask for? We've got some very special people in our life.

We started our day at the Mutual Dell with the Johnson Clan. Trevor had never been up AF Canyon which was a shame since I spent so much of my time there growing up. He also learned that no matter how much time I spent up the canyon, I still hate dirt in my toes and am a pansy mountain woman. We had a BBQ at the cabin and got to spend some time with my dad. Life always get's more exciting when you get my Dad and Trevor together. They help each other understand me a little bit more each time. 

My grandma  and her husband bud came over to mom's house tonight for the BBQ. I  have such fun grandparents, but Grandma Charleen is one of a kind. She has taken such great care of me my whole life and is about as hip and stylish as granny's get. The best part is that she adores Trevor. I have to laugh everytime she calls because Trev and his wellbeing are very important to her. Me and my big sis have always been granny's girls. It's hard not to be. We were very excited to see her.

I am surrounded by women in this world that I admire and adore, but this one trumps! My Mama... ( she hates it when I call her that haha)  She recently got married and we honestly haven't spent much quality time at home since the event. But when I do, I always realize how much I miss her.

After Mom and granny, there are 3 other very special ladies that I would do anything for. My best friend and her two little superstars. It's actually crazy how much they all three are alike. They all always look their best. Whether it's great hair or great bows. They can make you think the world is coming to an end when a bug comes around. And even if they are raging mad at you one second, blink and it will all be over and they will love you again.  My family would never be the same without Chan and her two girls, Fin and Brink.

This one is the worst! Don't be deceived by those adorable blue eyes. She'll have you wrapped around her finger before you even realized you're whipped over this 2 year old! Even Uncle "T" will chase her around and play ball for hours.This is one girl that knows what she wants and get's it just because you can't resist her. I may be no more than treats and kisses to this one, but being an aunt is unlike anything I've ever experienced.

Brinkley is just a dream. She is one of the happiest babies I've ever seen. She could make anyone want to have a baby!

This 4th of July couldn't have gone better.

Toes in the water

Today was the definition of a lazy day, and oh how it was necessary. This week ended up being crazier than expected. We had something going on every night till late, and with Trev's job requiring him to be awake before the sun every morning, we didn't get much beauty sleep. Thank heavens for an open afternoon. We were able to catch up on lost sleep and much behind laundry. But after being stagnant all afternoon, we decided to take a walk. This is one of the things I love most about summer nights. We went to the "lake" in daybreak and walked the trail around the water.We stopped on the dock and hung our toes in water. I worried the whole time that fish the size of cards were going to bite my toes off. Trevor on the other hand found his entertainment from throwing ducks rocks and laughing when they thought it was food. For some reason we are very easily entertained. It was a perfect night that literally ended with 4th of July fireworks starting early in the neighborhoods around us. How cool is that? Who says that only happens in movies. Best part is, we get them tomorrow night too! YaY for the Fourth of July!!!

Here goes...

I've come to realize lately that I like to live right inside my comfort zone. It's actually quite nice there, stress free and predictable. Then again, I've also realized I'm about as creative as a dot to dot picture. Enough is enough. I can no longer sit back and envy "those" women. You know, the women that can decorate anything, have trendy fashion,way too cute handwriting and great blogs. I'm pretty much a jeans and a t-shirt kind of girl. That isn't likely to change, but I'm ready to try something new!  So here is a shot in the dark.
I used to be a religious journal writer, and not a day went by without some sort of report before bedtime. But life gets hectic, and that habit faded fast. It actually died miserably when I started dating Trev, and every last minute with him became priority. But Since he's come into my life, things are so much more exciting. It deserves to be documented somewhere! Apparently, this is the place.